For A friend...

      Some relations can never be named. Just like my relation with A. I met A today after many years & once we met all the memories of us together, started flashing in my mind. Those were such good days when we used to make fun, tease & care for each other. We were so childish those days. & A came in my life.. a caring, possessive, friendly & carefree A whom I liked very much. I still remember those days when I, A, A2, A3, N, U, R,.. we all were together. we were so good. But best of all was definitely A. I don't know, if all others think the same way, but I really admire A for all the things A did for me knowingly or unknowingly.... We were so happy together. Perhaps I started feeling differently.. & then suddenly entered M in our life & all things changed. I don't know I hate M or I don't hate M.. but I am definitely angry with M for what M did to A. A is a gem of friends, has always been...& I thought M didn't deserve A at all. I prayed for A that A got the best of this world. & perhaps it happened.
               I tried to talk to A, but A didn't listen to me. May be A thought that I didn't want A to trust M. But what A never understood was that, I just wanted A to be happy. But Sometimes too much care is not good for friendship, & same happened with us. both A & I parted our ways. & I still remember the day it all happened, I was so sad that day because I had lost a friend of lifetime.... after that day we seldom talked.... I still remember the day I left that place where I had first met A..., A didn't even come to say bye .... a couple of weeks before A2 had asked me if I had something to say to A & I had said no.. How could I tell that all to A2, when I had understood-somewhere deep in my mind, that A would never befriend me again. I don't know what was that feeling, But I really missed my friend A a lot & I never thought we would talk again.
            But I actually l had not understood A. Once when I was in need, A got to know that from one of our common friends & after that A talked to me, helped me all he could .. without my asking A to do so... I think that is what friendship is. Friends know & understand each others' needs & problems & extend their helping hand so naturally. May be this doesn't mean anything to you A, but it means me a lot. I can never forget your thoughtful gesture.
            And today I met you again. I felt so good. You were so spontaneous & friendly. I can't tell you how happy I am meeting with you my dear friend. I don't know if you felt the same way, but I sure was too happy to meet you. It doesn't matter if you'll be with me or not friend, but you & your friendship will always be precious for me. Thanks for being so good & being my friend.
       
   
 

Mandakini- gorgeous Ganga, who disappeared...

'Celebrity status' often demands price which sometimes is very heavy...  India TV has started a series 'Talash'- the search of yesteryear's Bollywood celebrities, who once had been the heartthrob of million fans & are now living the life of complete dark, of stark anonymity....., or I should say that people have forgotten them...There are many of such stars. But here I want to talk about Mandakini. ..

       Manakini:...Ram Teri Ganga Maili's Ganga.. who skyrocketed to fame within a night, after playing a bold & beautiful avatar in great showman Rajkapoor's dream project & who overnight became dream girl of every Indian man. She did around 41 movies in her short Bollywood life span of 4 years.. some hits, many flops but every film with bold character... & then suddenly, one day she disappeared.

 There were rumors that she had secretly married with underworld don Dawod Ibrahim & since then had been living with him in Dubai. Her snaps with don were distributed  & showed everywhere in media. Nobody bothered to look for her... as in Bollowood the only rule that never breaks is.."the show must go on".   .. no matter if showman or show-woman have changed...:-). ...So, the show went on & people forgot Mandakini. 

 Even I & my other media friends also thought that Mandakini was somewhere in Dubai with 'bhai'ji. 

It was only yesterday, when I saw that series Talash on India TV, I got to know that she never got married with Dawod Ibrahim & that she is very much in Mumbai, in India. 

 As reporters tracked her down, they found that she was living a very ordinary housewife's life in her rented home in Mumbai, with her Tibetan doctor husband & two children. They showed her recent snap which clearly exposed  folds of time on her face... a plump figure & a very ordinary 'housewife next door' appearance sum up to  make Mandakini now a days.  She was not interested in facing camera. She in fact refused to come in front of camera & giving interview. Instead, she sent the camera team to her husband's clinic who talked with reporters on her behalf.  His husband is a nice man who had a chitchat with media persons & told many things about Mandakini and her years of anonymity. But of course there were many questions he couldn't answer like-

- how did they end up living such austere life while Mandakini was a star actor & must have earned quiet a fortune for herself?

- why did she not come forth to rubbish all the rumors about her links with Dawood Ibrahim if she was in Mumbai & had no such connections?

-Why did she suddenly disappear from the screen.., what made her to decide to leave her career midway, as a successful actor in the bollywood?

- why she chose to live the life of anonymity?

- Why does she not want to face camera..?

& there are many others.....

Her husband said that they were planning to produce a film with Hollywood actors & Mandakini was planning her comeback with that film . But I doubt it.  I think it's a fake piece of information because with their rented home & a very ordinary clinic of Mr Mandakini,  It didn't seem that they would be having enough funds to produce a film and that too with hollywood cast. 

God knows what is the truth... but I am very intrigued by her story. I really wanna know what actually happened to her. Did she pay the price of fame...or was that her sudden awakening from that fame game, that made her leave the bollywood & take a way back to anonymity...?  

Soooooooooooooooo.....per..natural..

This article is dedicated to the best TV show ever. TheWinchester brother's show; SUPERNATURAL. I started to see that show by coincident 3 or  4 months back on Star world when it was in it's first season.., The introductory season. And the episode I watched was..'Something Wicked', in which both brothers nab a witch Striga. I saw both the brothers first time & instantly I became a fan of the show.., actually of both handsome brothers, esp Dean. For the first time ever I saw such a good pair of heroes in a hollywood show.
And I must mention it's not about the handsome heroes only but also about the chemistry between both of them that made me love this show. I had never seen such beautiful portrayal of brotherly love before, ever in any of the reel shows.
Deep & intense love of Dean for his little brother Sam is something that might have made every boy who had watched this show, long for one such elder brother. Dean is . so adorable as a bossy, caring & fun filled elder brother who is ready to go up to any extent to keep Sam from any danger. Though he never leaves a single chance to mock Sam, but his love for Sam is also visible in his every action. He is always ready to die for Sam & always looks for Sam's needs & nobody dares to mess with Sam in Dean's presence. He himself can ridicule him, tease him or pat him but if anyone else does the same, he has to face Dean's wrath. baba re baba... love this character... He is also so very cheerful & comical that he can make you laugh in any given situation.

  And little brother Sam, the taller one, the younger one & a Sasquatch...is a college graduate who abhorred his family business of hunting in the beginning & hated his hunter father & brother duo and who started to take hunting more seriously later in fourth season & who even indulged in evil doings & blood drinking (but even than Dean didn't deserted Sammy). Sam also loves his bossy brother Deant  very much. He is a computer savvy youngster who always has to bear with Dean's little moment of ecstasies, for which he uses Sam's things & laptop frequently. Being younger to Dean, Sam also, often has to be the victims of Dean's mischievous doings. But he never complains & instead he deals with his brother maturely & bravely.

What I like most about the show is the humanly characterization of both Sam & Dean. They are not like other heroic shows heroes. They are very much like guys next doors. They have their own, humanly weaknesses. They fear, long, cry, laugh, envy, dream, lust, fight each other... just like any other human being on earth. They are not perfect. They make mistakes & sometimes learn from them just like us. Many times they defeat & sometimes are defeated but they never cease to fight for what they are committed to.. hunting- their family business. Dean is a glutton, lustful person & Sam is an egoistic with self acclaimed intelligence.

Many a times they both encounter their own fears, flaunt their emotions & also compete with each other... I just love their earthly characters that perhaps everyone can identify with. & The USP of this show is, these Winchester brothers' love for each other.. a very divine kind of love which can be seen very rarely. I love to see them caring for each other just like their parents. I actually admire both Js.., i.e,  Jensen Ackles & Jared Padalecki for portraying such complex yet simple & friendly Winchesters brothers' characters so beautifully.
And you can never forget Dean's Pick up lines & daring acts. He mercilessly uses Sam as a funny object and can ridicule all humans, Satan & Angels equally, at any given time & chance. My other favorites on the show are Jo, Bela, trickster, Castiel & Crowly.
The most Important thing I have learned from Supernatural is that we ourselves are the writers of our destiny & humans are so powerful that they, if want, can challenge even God. 
 Have seen all seven seasons & am eagerly waiting for the all new eighth season. Want to know how Dean & Castiel survived monster souls in purgatory. Hope it be aired in India Soon.

Language of god... the silence (some random thoughts)

I was thinking about the magic of words. They actually are magical if used in right combination, mingled with true feelings, said at the right time to the  right person... they actually create magic... & you see it immediately.

Sometimes I thought, as we all are creation of god, he has created everything just perfect. And as he is the father of us all there may be something that does bind us together just like the siblings who by some or other way are same & linked. Every single thing god has created, is in perfect harmony of whole universe which is also created by him. We just need to find the right link among his creations. Have you ever thought of that link...? I observe that the simplest link is words, language.., through which we communicate with each other.  But god's words are different... they are silent words...

Words that are spoken, relate our feelings to others..., they bind us with others.. They no doubt are magical...., but their magic is confined to among the people who understand them. If I don't understand Pushto, Russian or any other language, I can't feel their magic. I understand Hindi & english only, so I can appreciate their magic only..., but then there is a silent language..., a language of feelings.., a language that nobody taught no one, nobody learned from no one..., the language of god.., the language of universe...the language that links every single entity to other & the whole universe....The miraculous, enchanting words that are spoken without uttering anything.
Ever thought how we, without uttering a word understand happiness of a complete stranger...., or love of an animal..., or anger of a foreigner... or age of a tree..... or sweetness of a flower...or hardness of a stone........, these all things are communicated by a silent, beautiful, mysterious & godly language- the silence., that is spoken by every living and non living thing in the universe.
 Everything of the world's best is appreciated in silence & the worst is mourned also in silence. Silence is something understood by everyone, related by everyone knowingly or unknowingly....so I feel silence is the god's words, universal language... spoken by everyone... understood by everyone.

Unconditional love is not possible for me

Sometimes it feels wrong when someone talks about the unconditional love. I don't know if it is possible for someone, but I've never felt, experienced & listened about it in practical life. As for me, when I see old movies based on unconditional love, I also try to practice this form of love for some of my friends & loved ones but i never succeed. I can't do that..., I am human.., a sinner, a greedy, a weak & an ordinary human being who want to be loved back when she loves someone. And when it does not happen she glooms, she feels bad & she wants to do something about it. And though she knows & has learned the quote that one should not expect anything from anyone else one won't be happy, she expects, & expects a lot..., many times...

weird researches, weird findings...

Do you know..

• Red dressed waitresses are tipped more than others donning different colors' cloths....
• People tend to see more porn in winters & early summers...
• Assam is the top state of India to gulp booze & Assamese women are big time guzzlers defeating all other women of India in their love for alcohol....
•  Most men don't like to fancy funny women.., 
• people walk fastest in Singapore....

wait, what are you thinking.., I am not writing some funny lines here. All above mentioned sentences actually are the research findings based on statistical data collected by the researchers, students, government officials & various world agencies globally. They may look weird, but they are facts, based on processed data. What you saw here are just highlights, but if you'll go and search about the research findings yourself on google or may be in library.., you'll be amazed to find the topics, goals & nature of those studies & their results. Many a times they are fake & biased as it has also been proved in research. You can read

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2010/11/101115210944.htm &  http://www.naturalnews.com/028194_Scott_Reuben_research_fraud.html, http://www.plosmedicine.org/article/info:doi/10.1371/journal.pmed.0020124) 

They basically are for commercial benefits. But it certainly doesn't mean that all the studies are fake. Some are true & enlight us. And of course they give us a reason to think & smile. There are many, very interesting & amazing research findings that  may be read on net. But here I am presenting some which I found most interesting, surprising and enjoyable...

• People who often show empathy to each other & live together for long times, develop facial similarity over time. Researchers have proved that married couples become more similar as they get older. ( that may be true because people say I and my husband look alike:-))
• According to a research names as 'last name effect', people whose surnames start with letters later in alphabet, are more likely to br quick on the draw to make purchases. Means if your surname starts with either U, V, W, X, Y or Z, you'll spend more money in market. (Thankfully my surname is Agrawal:-))
• You’re more likely to die receiving a paycheck. Specifically, second paycheck because by then you really have some money to spend—and apparently, it’s more likely to get spent in ways that aren’t good for one’s health. (so if you have not been given your paycheck, it's company's strategy to keep you alive :-))
• Psychologists Hart & Boltz in 1993 found that people who own dogs have more conversations with other people then the others without a dog. (:-)) 
• Country music causes suicide. 
• People will never stop eating if you let them.
• A British researcher found that serial coffee drinkers are more likely to feel the presence of dead people. 

Now I should stop writing because another research says, people who write more than eight hundred words long article on net, are reclusive & tend to develop psychological disorders that can ultimately shorten their life span ;-)....

(Source -http://www.mensfitness.com/training/pro-tips/weird-health-studies-you-can-use

http://www.news.com.au/world-old/ghosts-masturbation-and-weird-findings/story-e6frfkyi-1225811070579)

Give Team Anna A Chance

            Anna has become an epidemic in this country, which spread like wildfire. People trusted Anna & his team, people supported them, which I think was the biggest support to a leader post independence. The most important aspect of the movement Anna,was, that people of India, beyond their class, creed, caste & other things took to the roads to support Anna. Their were students, their were businessmen, their were housewives, their were children, their were actors..... I mean you name it & we have it.
Those were the people who with their own will came to support Anna ji. Democracy's fourth pillar- Media also supported Anna ji with all it's forces. And we all saw the result. Government had to accept Anna's demands, they had to promise to form a strong Lokpal bill, however they broke the promise later as they always do. But that movement ended successfully.
Now see the one they recently started, in which three of Anna team members began hunger strike. Anna also joined them after a couple of days. The goal was same, Team Anna was the same, The people that thronged Jantar mantar were same... then what changed... yes many things changed this time...
number 1- media didn't supported team Anna same way they did during their first movement. ( there were some reports that congress people have threatened Indian Media to cancel their licence if they keep showing POSITIVE side of Anna movement, which I feel, might be true because I have been in media & know the pressure they work under)
Number 2- government also completely ignored Anna movement. I mean people had been continuing their hunger strike for ten days & none of the government minister came to team Anna & talk to them. Instead they refrained from commenting on their fast & demonstrations. This I think was the part of a strategy. This was a Chanakya Rarneeti, which shook team Anna's courage. They were getting huge support of Indian people but nobody from the government was talking to them. Instead, Indian media with their pointless discussions, were tarnishing their image.

So there was no other way for team Anna, then to end their movement halfway. And I have been in support of their forming a political party since the beginning of their movement. Because  I feel that changes can be made only when you have enough power to bring them. & for that power they'll have to join politics with a clear & concrete intention to bring changes. We can't just start movement every time we want something from the government. We actually need power to change something. So in that decision, I back team Anna...

Of course the way to power corridors is not really easy, plus the most tedious task is to keep oneself focused to one's goal. There are many temptations, many elements that can deviate one from its ultimate path to success, but still I feel that if team Anna would join politics & if we would send them to parliament with the power of our votes, they can, up to some extent, cleanse the polluted polity of India & they would also make some tough laws to curb corruption.

What is wrong in giving them a chance. We have been giving chances to both congress & BJP even after knowing both the parties' true shady natures. Now when there can be a new option, what is the problem in trying it. and we should not forget that they would be like infants in the Indian politics, so even if they would think to be corrupt, they can no way beat veteran parties congress & BJP. When their are two dangers, one always chooses to face what is less dangerous. And I think Anna's political party would be less dangerous then others. So I am ready to give them a chance. do you...?  

Dedicated to a friend

On this day of Friendship, my first blog is dedicated to a friend who taught me the meaning of friendship. The one who is a gem of a friend. The one who guided me, protected me, backed me, scolded me, listened to me, cried with me & sometimes even laughed at me... but I know, each & every time my friend actually was trying to make me stronger, happier & more mature.  When we were together, it was easy for me to share pains with my friend & now when we are a call away.., whenever I call my friend, I don't just get warm response, but also comfort & solace.
  And that is the beauty of our friendship. We know each other, we respect each other & we give space to each other. Though my friend already knows that, but I just want to reassure.., that our friendship is the most treasured thing in my life. Days passed with you are the dearest memories for me & our friendship will remain intact till we both reach in grave.
Have a great life ahead dear friend
happy friendship day



  

Introduction to the Rainbow

hello world...,
 It's just a small beginning to share all shades of a rainbow that exist & are very much intact in a creative being called Chitra Agreawal. You might be thinking why it is so needed? So friends, let me clear one thing, it's not just a desire to say what i think & observe, but with this free blogging site, I'have also been provided with the means to freely express & share my thoughts with the whole world.
So here I am, a hard core Baniya ( the most prominent shade of the rainbow :-)) using this free space to share a whole rainbow with you people.
There may be flip sides, there may be strictly non-interesting, self praise type articles or passing thoughts about an ongoing event...., there may even be some sobbing.., sad  moments, some extremely biased comments or may be some completely irrational quotes.... but they are all shades of a rainbow & I am the one who doesn't want to hide them beneath the bright surface. So if you enjoy this rainbow, you are most welcome, if you don't,  move on... there are many others to explore.